Last month I was on 50 mg and loving life. Besides being tired and hot flashes (and then acne and sore boobs after) I had no side effects. I had no mood swings. I was sitting pretty an I loved it.
This month my dose ha been doubled... I now take 100 mg, yup 2 pills a day. And this double dose is a doozy! I am every more tired and I am now experiencing some mood swings... Hopefully I contain myself and not lash out on the mr.
Yesterday I woke up just too tired to even sit up but being a mom I had to force myself to get Emma breakfast. There were battles I chose not to fight like Emma wearing pjs all day even to the store and buyin her boy pull ups.
I found out 3 friends were pregnant... Yup all 3 yesterday... And I went from so excited for the first to jealous, bitter and plain sad for the second and back to being so beyond excited for the 3rd. I am so messed up. I also cried when Emma gave me a big hug and said "mama I love you the most"
Today I had a good long cry... Because my sister is in Texas and I have no idea when or if I will ever meet my niece. My sister Lindsey has always been one of my best friends so this is so so hard on me.
Clomid is not so much my friend right now... My little baby will be worth it I know, but still it can be hard.
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