That spoke straight to my heart. No, I don't have cancer and am very grateful for my health. But do I have the faith to not get pregnant again? And this is the first time I can honestly say "Yes, I am putting all my faith and trust in Heavenly Father." This is the first time since we have been trying that I wasn't completely heartbroken when the evidence that I wasn't pregnant came. This was the first time no tears were shed and this was the first time I felt peace. This was the first time I focused on the blessings I do have and chose to be grateful for them instead of worrying and being depressed over the fact that I wasn't pregnant.
I know that one way or another our family will grow and we will be blessed with more children. I know that I have been blessed with a very sweet, special spirit to raise. I am grateful for the light and joy Emma brings to my life. I am grateful for her simple faith that reminds me to do better. I am grateful for her basic love for the gospel. I am grateful for her happiness, her love for me and her cuddles. I am grateful that my family is sealed together forever.
Amazing post, Hilary. So well put. Elder Bednar gave that talk at a CES fireside. It has helped me as well.
ReplyDeleteYou are young yet, and I know so many people who tried for years to get pregnant with another baby, or who were told that they couldn't have any or couldn't have more, and then "ta-dah" years later they have been able to conceive. There are awesome blessings for families of all kinds, whether there is 1 child, or many, whether kids are close together, or whether there are a few years between them. It is great that you are finding the faith to carry on no matter what. Thanks for the inspiring post!!
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