"You feel broken don't you?"

Today I saw the OB-GYN that my doctor referred me to and I was impressed. Although I said I would never go back to Ogden women's clinic I decided to give them one last shot (just not the dr I had seen) his nurse was very friendly and easy to talk to.
When the dr came in and I explained everything he asked "so what are you thinking you want to do?" I was taken back by the question. I have been thinking about this for days and had no idea what I want... So I told him exactly that but I was impressed he cared about what I wanted (since the other dr I had seen didn't)
He then asked, "what is more important to you, to get pregnant or to be pain free?" I started to choke up and spit out "get pregnant" and the tears started coming. He thoughtfully handed me tissues and asked the magic question that completely sold me to him, "you feel broken don't you?" Finally someone who gets it! Someone who understands how bad I am hurting and someone who cares!
He told me the 3 main reasons people don't get pregnant and how we can test for those.
1. You don't ovulate. Even if you have having regular monthly cycles you may not be ovulating so he told me to try ovulation test and/or come in for blood work between day 18-24 of my cycle to see if I ovulated and if my hormone levels are high enough to support a baby.
2. Your tubes are closed off. They push blue dye through your uterus to see if it flows through your tubes.
3. Something is up with the semen.
He says it is likely that my endometriosis has returned but since last time "it was painful but small and wouldn't necessarily prevent pregnancy" he wasn't pushing surgery.
He did a pelvic exam (yuck no fun! I hate those!!!) and said that he couldn't feel any scar tissue.
He gave me lots of hand outs and said he wanted me to get pregnant.
Yes an ob-gyn gave me the time of day before I had been trying a year.
He also showed me pictures of all the exams he could do and really walked me through all my options.
Yes, me with the stubborn ovaries has options! I am so glad he made sure that I was educated and that I was in control. I was so impressed.
After talking with my husband we are going to hold off on surgery. And do the least evasive and expensive options first. We both feel good about the blood test to see if I ovulated and where my hormone levels are. And we will go from there.
Today I feel hope. Hope in the future and hope in my family. I finally have a dr willing to listen and cares. And I have options.