Brian and I did things really fast... Got engaged after 12 days, married 5 days short of 4 months and pregnant a month later. Doing it that fast made our relationship more difficult. Marriage is hard for everyone but when you fast forward like we did some things that would get ironed out in dating magnify in marriage. On days where it seemed easier to just say, "well that was fun see ya later" (aka divorce) Emma made that not even an option. I mean who wouldn't want to see that adorable face everyday?
So what came first the chicken or the egg? Did we get married and pregnant fast to get Emma or did we get Emma because we got married fast? Yes. I believe whole heartily that we got married fast so that we could be blessed with Emma and that she could come to the earth when she did. I also believe that because we got married fast we needed Emma to keep our eternal perspective when times got tough and to keep our family together.
When we have fights Emma is the reason we we make up faster. When I am struggling with my infertility moods ema makes me realize how blessed I am. When I start to doubt anything she reassures me that The Lord is mindful of me and has a plan far greater than mine.
Emma has made life hard but she has blessed our marriage and our family more than I could even express. Emma you have pieced me back together when I am falling apart! Emma you are the greatest blessing and I am so grateful for you! I need and learn from you just as much possibly more than you need and learn from me! I love you princess.
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