Saturday, May 18, 2013

Totally irrational?

So the more people find out about my clomid treatments the more stories I hear. My sister who thinks like a doctor says it is wonderful. A family friend who is so even tempered said it made her very emotional and her sister in law who was already emotional it made her completely irrational, to the point of it was either getting off of clomid or get a divorce.
This scares me. I am so emotional, moody, dramatic, sensitive and irrational as it is... Let alone pumping me full of hormones. I am scared I am going to go completely nuts and either A. make Brian not want to do what needs to be done to make a baby or B. ruin my marriage or C. Both!  So I am asking for your prayers. Pray that I will be able to control my emotions and not go completely and 100% insane. Pray that Brian will be patient and have strength to deal with super crazy Hilary. Pray that clomid will work and will work fast so that mega crazy Hilary won't be around long. 
This is going to take everything with in me but I am going to work hard at not loosing it... My baby is worth it... My baby is worth my pain, my heartache, and all my strength being focused on not being locked up in a padded room. I am stronger than the side effects of clomid... I can do this... The first step is positive thoughts right?

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