Uplifting Sunday

Today was a great day. I love Sundays! There is nothing like hearing the jr primary belt out "I am a child of God" the spirit was so strong in that room as they prepared for sharing time. 

Then as I was helping my mom get dinner ready she said, "Hilary when you got married my one piece of advice was wait to have kids but you said, 'mom I feel like I have to try, this may be my only chance.' And now with everything you are going through those words keep running through my head. I really feel like you knew what you were doing by going off birth control and getting pregnant with Emma so fast."

I don't remember saying that to her but I do remember feeling the sure prompting that I needed to not prevent pregnancy and that my baby was ready. And then to have Brian have the exact same prompting at the exact same time. I remember it like it was yesterday. And I remembered the comfort as I saw the positive pregnancy test that over powered my fears. 

Emma has by far been my greatest blessing and is such a miracle. I love her in a way I never knew possible!!! Now I know that she is not my only child but I don't know if she is my only biological child. She very well may be my only chance... If she is or is not my only biological child she sure is my strength during my infertility challenge. Knowing that I have been blessed with her brings gratitude where there is envy and resentment, brings faith where there is doubt.