Unless you've been there...

Unless you have been in a situation where you are longing for a baby but can't get pregnant you don't know. You don't know that your emotions are off the wall and that one second you can be so happy for people who are pregnant but then that very next pregnancy announcement sends you overboard and you sink back into depression.

Unless you have struggled with infertility you don't know. You don't know how badly it can affect your marriage. You don't know that this tiny little black monster of a word can cause so much stress and strain to your relationship. You don't know the guilt you feel that you can't give your spouse a baby and you don't know the rejection he feels because you "aren't satisfied" with the little family you have.

Unless you have been there you don't know. You don't know that the emotional pain far out weighs the physical pains. 

Unless you have had month after month of getting your hopes up only to have yet another negative pregnancy test and have that completely shatter your day you don't know.

Unless you have had the decision of where to go since the natural way isn't working you don't know. You don't know how scary it is and you don't know how hard it is to make that decision (not that I was ever good at making up my mind on anything). 

Unless you have felt the heartbreak and failure from infertility you don't know. You don't know how lonely it is. You don't know that although you have your best friend by your side he is feeling the same pain you are and it is just as hard on him and then to add seeing you hurt an angry and frustrated only makes it worse for him so you long for someone who can relate, who you can cry to and who can truly understand the pain inside.

I'm sorry for any insensitivity I have shown in the past to anyone suffering through such a heart wrenching trial. I now know and understand how truly difficult it is in every single aspect of your life.